Yesterday the Tarot cards told me to focus on change and following the middle path. Today I’m finding out what energy or energies I should use to facilitate this change. And again, the cards aren’t messing around. 
My cards are the Five of Swords, The Chariot, and The Hierophant.
The Five of Swords is about conflict, but it is also about diversity; diversity in opinion, in people, or even in experiences. This is a very evocative card in the Lo Scarabeo deck. The feelings I get from this card are all about turning away from those things or people who aren’t helping me move forward. The energy for this card is one of pulling inward, to my core beliefs and using that energy to eliminate what isn’t working for me.
The Chariot has very strong forward movement energy. This charioteer controls his physical and emotional desires to drive a straight path to a goal. It is a card of willpower, something that is difficult for me! This works with the previous card in that all of the energy I save by not pursuing (or fighting) my old habits should be used to forge a straight path to what is needed.
The Hierophant is all about rules and institutions. We need to fully understand the rules of our individual culture and society before we can decide our own path. There’s a feeling that I’ve broken some of the rules because I don’t understand why they are there.
It seems that this whole spread is about using the energy I previously wasted on fighting things and not following the rules to forge a straight path, discover the rules I should be following, and just do it! There’s very much a feeling of irritation or frustration with these cards. “You know what you need to do! Stop wasting your time and do it!”
The “rules” I’ve broken aren’t legal issues, I’m not a thief or a murderer! The last year or so of COVID got me into a rut of maladaptive daydreaming. I play elaborate fantasies in my head to amuse, console, and soothe myself. I can lose hours at this and you can probably understand the amount of energy wasted in this useless and self-harming exercise. Outside of work I’ve not done anything!
In the first year of COVID, I did a lot. During lockdown, I began reading Tarot professionally and grew in my understanding quite a bit. I started learning to paint in watercolors as well. As my isolation grew, my anxiety started creeping in. To curb my anxiety I fell back on re-reading books and watching movies or shows that I’d already seen. This is quite a comfortable rut and, along with my daydreams, doesn’t challenge me at all. After all, challenge causes anxiety! Must avoid anxiety at all costs!
But anxiety used a lot of energy. The possibility of plowing through the discomfort and using those emotions to break through this stasis is exciting; I can definitely see the benefits. But it is terrifying as well because it means pushing myself to a place that is unknown.
So I have this new path before me for September. I’m being counseled to divert the energy that is keeping me comfortable and safe, but very quiescent and static, for more dynamic purposes. By following the “rules” of getting enough sleep and exercise, listening to my body, and being more active both physically and mentally, I can start making progress along my life path again.
As I work through these prompts for September, the how will make itself known. But it isn’t enough just to know what I need to do. Action is required! Care is needed, however, because I tend to go all-in, obsess, and then get burned out and give up! So, just one action for now: Do Something Different. Every day I’ll pick one thing that I always do, such as sitting down at 5 to watch the news, or reading a book I’ve read 10 times before. Instead, I’ll do something different! And I’m limiting it to one thing per day.
Yesterday, instead of sitting down as reading The Other Boleyn Girl during lunch, I vacuumed and cleaned house. Just that one thing was pretty big for me. Today, instead of reading a book I literally could quote by heart, I’m going to pick up one of the books I haven’t read yet, a nonfiction book.
Small steps.
What Clients are Saying about Sophrosyne Tarot
I was advised to ask open-ended questions instead of predictive questions which I thought was helpful because I never would have known if it weren’t for the reader. The reader provided the reading along with some advice too so the entire reading was very thorough and explained in an understandable manner.
Everything said was accurate and helpful for me to identify my flaws in order to grow as a person. I have learned a lot about tarot and what it does to help me.
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